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About literallydee

23, german, air force wife.

We’re done!! … for now.

Hello everybody! Long time no see! Uhm read…

It has been a while since I wrote something. And I think I have good reasons. Ok one good reason, which is, PCSing.

For all of you who are not familiar with all the ‘military slang’ (don’t worry I’m still trying to figure it all out even though we’ve been together for almost 2 years), PCSing means Permanent Change of Station. Yes, it has to be something fancy like that because ‘moving’ is just not cool enough. 

For the last month we’ve been running around, doing back flips and trying to figure it all out since it’s the first PCS move for me and my husband. 

We are currently living in Germany, which you might know, and our new home will be in the states. So all ouf our household goods and our car had to be packed up and shipped. The packing was done by the moving company, which sounded amazing when I first heard about it. You’re guessing right, there is a ‘but’.

I’ve moved a few times in my live so far, but this time, has been the worst so far. Most people say that it’s just because it’s our first PCS move and that all the other moves will be sooooo much easier. I don’t believe it. 

I really liked the idea of someone else doing the work and packing everything up and putting it away so it could be shipped to the states, but when we started to throw out stuff we didn’t want anymore and started packing our suitcases, it was the worst to see all the other stuff still laying around and not being allowed to pack ANYTHING! at all. 

After a very stressful week, in which I had my final exam for my apprenticeship, the unaccompanied baggage was being picked up, we finally got my visa approved, i had my graduation ceremony, the moving company came 2 days early to pack our HHG and we gave the keys to our first flat back to the landlord and moving into base housing we we’re FINALLY! all packed up and ready to go…

… is what I thought. Little did I know that trying to spend as much time with your parents and family before you leave the country for an unknown amount of time, outprocessing, arranging a go away party, doing multiple visits at my doctors here in germany and getting our car ready to be shipped out was gonna make the next 1 1/2 weeks of my life quite stressful. 

After running around like crazy, handing in about 100 papers, getting our car ready to go and getting shipping plates, doing the Macarena and running back and forth again, because the people from outprocessing didn’t know my husband had special allowances for his job, we are finally done. I never thought I’d see this day. 

Now the only thing we have to do, is waiting to fly out of germany. We’re probably gonna be spending the last few days with my parents and enjoy our time left here. 
I hope you’re all having an amazing day and I’ll talk to you soon!
Next stop: USA ✈


The fever.

Hello everybody!

My husband and I have been married for 10 months now. Well, almost.

But even before we met, every time I saw a tiny little human being, my heart started beating a little faster. And lately it has only started to get worse.

Every time someone asks us ‘Do you want kids?’ I go ‘YES!!’ and start daydreaming about our future family. I have always wanted to be mummy.

But to become a mummy, you kinda also need a daddy! So before we got married last year, I sat my future husband down and said ‘We need to talk.’ Which is ALWAYS! a great thing to say when you wanna start a conversation with your partner. After he got that “oh god what is she gonna say next”-look off his face I asked the question that I wanted to ask for soooooo long!
‘How many kids do you want?’
For some people it might be the question they ask before getting into a serious relationship. But for both of us being only 21, we had never really talked about it.
Thankfully his answer was ‘3.’ which was very close to my perfect number of 4. So we agreed… let’s be honest, I agreed with myself that 4 was perfect for us and we have wanted 4 kids ever since.

Lately everybody around us is getting pregnant or just had a baby and they are all THE MOST ADORABLE BABIES I’VE EVER SEEN!!
Which is not helping my baby fever at all!
Their tiny little hands and those tiny little feet and those incredibly adorable cheeks! Am I the only one who’s crazy about tiny and cute baby feet?

I already have lists for boy and girl names. I know, I’m crazy.

I know there is a lot more to it than just cuddling and snuggling the little one all day long, but we’ll think about that when we get there 😉

Luckily my husband and I, this time it was really both of us, agreed on trying for a little munchkin ourselves next year.
I feel like 2017 can’t some fast enough, even though 2016 has just started!

Well, enough about how crazy I am when it comes to babies.

I hope you will have an amazing weekend and I’ll get back to watching Fuller House now!

Talk to you later!
You get it…


Hello everybody!

The last few weeks have been a little hectic and crazy. My husband got back from his first deployment, we’ve been running around on base for hours, filling out forms to start my green card process and finding out where we will be moving in July.

Last week we finally got to find out what state will be our new home.
We’ll be moving to: UTAH!

My husband is extremely excited since his brothers are stationed there as well and he wanted to be close to family so badly.
And me… well I’ve always wanted to leave Germany. The country I was born and raised in. I love it here, don’t get me wrong, but I’ve always had the feeling that I belong somewhere else.
Knowing where we’ll be going this July is weird. I dunno how I feel about it.
Of course I am excited! Can’t wait to move to the states and start a new adventure with my husband. But the second I read UTAH on the computer screen, it hit me. I knew I’d have to leave my family but it got so real and scary. Does any of you know what I’m talking about?
When I saw my parents faces when I told them… I don’t even know. Happy and incredibly sad at the same time. I’m not a mum yet, but seeing your baby moving thousands of miles away is probably very hard for every parent…

I have never been to Utah and this is our first time PCSing as well. So any kind of information or helpful advice is appreciated! 😀

Alrighty, I hope you’re all having an awesome Sunday and I’ll get up and get breakfast now 😉

Talk to you soon!

The first one.

It’s finally over!
The time of seeing each other very pixelated, trying to reconnect the call and waiting for ages in front of a weird looking frozen picture on the screen because the internet died right when you or you’re partner had to yawn or something like that.


He’s finally home.

I know that some couples have to go through deployments which are 9 or 12 months long or even longer.
But for the first one, 6 months were enough.
Before he left, everybody in his shop or every friend we talked to said ‘The first one is gonna be the worst one!’
And yes, it sucks to be alone and not being able to hug and kiss your love whenever you want. But I really have to say, that if this was the hardest deployment we had to go through, then the next one is gonna be easy!
A friend of mine is having a really hard time with her husband being gone and she cries almost every day, never leaves the flat and always stays alone at home and stuff like that. But that takes up so much of your strength that it will only make the 6 months longer and seem more endless.
If you stay busy and keep yourself entertained, you will do real good at it.

For right now, we’re incredibly happy it’s over though.

While I was waiting in the terminal where they arrived the time felt like it was standing still. Just moments away from being back in his arms I felt like it would take another few months for him to get here.
As the first Airmen started leaving the plane I got closer to the glass that kept us separated from the arriving people, put my homecoming sign I made against the glass and waited… and waited… and waited.
And finally, after 190 days, there he was. Right in front of me, only separated by a thin wall of glass.
He turned around and when he saw me he had the biggest smile on his face and I couldn’t hold back the tears.

The time until he had his bags and was able to get out felt like forever again.
Once he was finally ready to leave the terminal I hurried outside and ran up to him, we both dropped what we had in our hands and we just hugged and didn’t let go for the next at least 5 minutes.

After a lot of kisses and ‘I missed you so much!’ and after I finally stopped crying, we headed home.

Now it’ll probably take him a little while to adjust to normal life again and especially to the cold weather!

Enough for now, I’ll talk to you soon!
Yeah, you get it…

The last weekend.

Hello everybody!

Sooooo, it’s here. The last weekend before my husbands deployment is over. The last weekend that I’ll spend by myself.
Well it won’t be hus last deployment but at least the last weekend alone until he has to leave again.

It feels… kinda weird. Not bad weird, obviously! But he’s been gone for quite a while now and I’m so used to doing everything by myself. Like grocery shopping, cleaning the flat, kill the spiders (they are my biggest fear and I had to kill 2 of em the day he left, so I think the spiders know I’m alone atm!)…
It feels kinda weird that he’ll soon be back home with me and sleep in the same bed as I do and everything.
Is this normal?
I have absolutely no clue since it’s the first deployment.

I’ve got so much left to do before he gets home that I don’t even know when to do it. I’m probably gonna try to squeeze everything into this very very short weekend and probably gonna be ready for another weekend by Monday.

At least his homecoming sign that I’ll take to the airport with me is done! One point of the endless list is done! WOHOOOOO!

And now I better get going and start cleaning the flat!

I’ll talk to you soon!!
Well kinda…

Happy New Year!!!

Hello everybody and welcome to 2016!

I hope you all had an amazing new years eve! How did you survive the first two days of 2016 so far? Any new years resolutions?
Mine is to be the best wife I can be! And to not fail my final exam 😉

I’ve celebrated the new year by having some champagne and working at my parents restaurant! Wohoo, party animal!

The new year brought me and my husband the end date of his deployment. He finally got his ticket and when he told me that he was coming home i cried bunches!
It’s still a little bit to go and he has to stay a bit longer than ee thought he had to but at least we do have an end date. Even though every person who knows just a little bit about the military knows that it could change the second he wants to get on the plane!

So I started making a homecoming sign and I’ll start to buy everything he’s been missing for the last 6 months to keep up the excitement!

I hope you will all have an awesome 2016!!

See you later!
… well we will talk soon! 😉

The year is coming to an end…

Hello everybody!

It’s been a while since I wrote something on here. I just didn’t feel like it.

Either way, I hope you all had an awesome time with your families and friends, no matter if you celebrate christmas or something else or if you just had a few nice days off.

This year I spend christmas alone for the very first time. My husband, who’s still deployed, obviously couldn’t be here. My parents, grandma and brother spend christmas in New York. I sadly couldn’t go with them since I had to work.
And so I was left with the family dog. Who has already puked on my carpet 3 times since he’s here with me. Lovely!

But anyways, we decided that we’d celebrate once the hubby is finally back home from the deployment which will be some time in January.

And let me tell you something, christmas all by myself SUCKED!
I’m used to a busy christmas day with all the family members running around and preparing christmas dinner and trying to sneak into some presents.
But this year was really quiet. And so once again it showed me what really matters for christmas.
I know everyone loves presents, and I myself love giving gifts to other people and seeing them open them. But none of that matters when you’re all alone.
Family is the important thing at this time of the year.
I might be 21 but on that day, all I wanted was my mummy, daddy and grandma with me.
No one knows how many more christmases we will have with our loved ones and so we should cherish every wingle second we get to spend with them. Not just for the holidays but every single day.

Ok, so enough for this one.

Havean awesome time with your loved ones and I’ll see you soon!
… not literally, you know.

The most wonderful time of the year.

Hello everybody!

Thanksgiving is over. We’re officially on our way to christmas.
The most wonderful time of the year.

With December right in front of us, we’re also getting closer to the end of my husbands deployment.

He’s been gone for a few months now and I’m used to it. Sounds harsh, but yeah, I’m used to being alone.

Earlier today i put up the christmas tree. I was watching Greys Anatomy and in the back ground played ‘I’ll be home for christmas’.
That’s when it hit me.
I looked at the undecorated tree and I started crying.
For the first time in a while it got to me.
He won’t be home for christmas, he is still hoping for it, but I’m not. I’m being realistic and he’s more likely to stay away longer.

But then I thought of how it’s gonna be when we will have our belated christmas. I have all his birthday and chrostmas presents piled up, just waiting for him to unwrap them and I can’t wait to see his face.

Those things keep me going. Thoughts like that.
They say the last few weeks are the hardest, and I think they are right.
We have less then 2 months left and I think we’re right in those weeks now. Time is gonna go by super slow and it will feel like an eternity.
But I know we can do this.
We’ll make it through this.
And then I’ll be in his arms again and hold him close.

Have an amazing rest of the weekend everyone.
Talk to you later.
Guess you get it by now…

Hometown Glory.


Hello everyone!

I wanted to start off this post with a picture of my hometown area.

I don’t know if I have already said this, but next year at the end of July me and my husband will be going to the states because the Air Force is sending him back home. Hopefully the visa stuff will go super quick so that I can actually go with him and don’t have to wait in Germany.

He is excited. Of course. He wants to go back home, even thought he loves Germany.

And I am… I actually don’t know. On one side, I’m over the moon excited, because I’ve always wanted to get out of Germany and live somewhere else. On the other hand, I will be leaving my parents, grandma, brother and my whole family behind.
The town I was born and raised in and all the memories I have made.
Since I know that we will definitely be leaving Germany I keep finding myself getting… let’s say emotional.
For example, tonight.
I took the picture above on my way home from work. I was driving and I saw this and I just had to stop and take a picture. I also saw that they started putting up the christmas decoration in my hometown because the christmas market starts in only 2 weeks.
Everytime I see little things like this I get kinda sad about the fact that I will leave all this.

I know, I know. America will probably have amazing views too and everything, but it’s still like I’m leaving my whole life behind.
It’s kinda hard to describe to be honest.
I dunno if any of you know what I mean or what I’m talking about.

I try to spend as much time with my parents and family as possible and will be traveling through Germany to visit my whole family before I leave.

I just felt like sharing this.

So I hope you all have a good night and an amazing rest of the week!

Talk to you soon!
Yup, guess you get it.

My husband, the big child.

Hello everybody!

My husband recently asked me to send him his retainer to where he is right now.
After me reminding him of the discussion whether he would need it or not, where I was sure that he would want it at some time, I got up and grabbed the retainer and the smallest package I could find to send it off.
We all know that women are usually right in discussions either way 😉

But as I was about to go and ship off the package I thought, wait… do you really want to just send the retainer? Of course not!!

So I went to the toy store in our coty and grabbed 2 bionicles, because I remembered that he once told me that sometimes his days off are quite boring since there’s not much to do in the desert, other than building sand castles, and I guess that sucks after the first sandstorm hits you.
So I packed those as well and though it might make him smile.

So I sent it off and today he got it and I woke up to about 5 messages of him saying that we was dieing to build those bionicles asap and how happy he was about them. I would have never expected a reaction like that!
Ok I gotta admit that he is a huge nerd. He’s got a mancave and we have nearly every console that you can think of. But that he would be so excited about those toys was just awesome!
When he called me on skype tonight and I answered he was already building the first bionicle, despite the fact that he has to get up extra early tomorrow morning, he HAD TO! build it right then and there! And so he ended up making his bionicle fight the other one and he was just amazed and I think tonight he had an extra hard time to try and go to sleep instead of playing with his new toy.

Finally I know some things I can get him for christmas now, apart from just video games, because he already mentioned that he wants the red bionicle too 😀

Is it embarrassing for me to say that we enjoy playing with toys for kids? Nope! Because if we weren’t like this, our relationship would be quite boring and I’m sure our future kids will enjoy it 😀
We can’t wait to finally have kids so we can go and get all the Lego we can find!! 😉

Alright, that’s it for today!

I’ll talk to you soon!
Well text… whatever!